It has been so long since I have posted anything, I am still going strong with my sisterlocks and I am in love with my hair now since the day that I had them installed. It has been approximately 20 months since I got my babies and they are the best thing that I could have ever done for me... Although I have picked up a little weight my locs just keep getting better and better. I have lost a couple over this last year but even still it's great!!!!
Every since I was a little girl, I have heard the saying, "that when it rains it pours." Well in my life it certainly feels like is hurricane season. There just seems to be one thing after another and you always hear the saying that, " He will put no more on you that you can bare." Well I just don't feel like I can take anything else. I know that I have to keep my eyes on the prize. For some reason some time ago I took my eyes off the prize and my world has been a mess. Not to say that problems won't come when I keep my eyes on the prize, but is just easier to deal with when I keep my eyes on him. He is the prize and I have lost sight of that. So did all these things that are going on in my life happen so that I could get my focus back, most likely so. Sometimes the Lord has to find a way to get your attention, and in My life he has most certainly done so he has my attention. I can't do this thing called life on my on. I heard the other day if you want to make God laugh tell your plans. Well I have been putting on a comedic show for him. I have been trying to do things my way for so long now that just simply put nothing is working in my favor any longer. So I have my focus back and my eyes are back on the prize.
I am a terrible blogger when it comes to my hair. I have been sisterlocked officially 7 months now. It has been a great ride. I wake up and go each and every morning. I couldn't be any more happier with my hair than I am now. Here are some pictures of my progress. This has been the quickest 7 months of my life. It seems as if I just had them done. I can see growth at times but than there are times when I see nothing but again I am happy with my hair. This is defintely a journey and I am happy to be on it.
I don't know if I would say that I failed at the master cleanse. I would probably say that it has been put on pause. I started out really good and then it was my mother's birthday. So I decided that I would wait and start it back up after her birthday weekend. I mean how I could I take her out and just sit and drink some lemonade. That was not going to work. So here it is Tuesday I am ready to start and then here comes that good but bad news. I think that I could possibly have a little life forming inside of me. Not only does that really put on pause the master cleanse, but the whole weight loss efforts all together, at least for 9 months. It feels like every time that I become determined about getting my body back something like this happens. I really don't know what to feel about this whole thing. I mean this is crazy. I just started liking my husband again. I know that sounds crazy, but he was not one of my favorite people. We were working on us, evidently working a little too much. Or maybe not working the right way, we probably should have spent more time talking!!!! Well, I don't know whether to be happy or sad. My feelings are all over the place. This blogging thing is really the only place I have to get all these crazy feelings out in the open. Well hopefully I will feel better soon, or at least have some confirmation so I know where to go from here. It will probably be hard to get confirmation, if I am going to walk around in denial. I have been walking around trying to ignore all the signs; and I will probably continue to ignore these feeling for a couple of more weeks. Will keep you posted.
Okay I know that this blog is supposed to be about sisterlocks, well It is now going to include my journey to well being also. I have decided to embark on attempting to do this master cleanse for the second, well maybe third time. I figure that if I write down at least what I am feeling, it just may help me get through it a little better. First and foremost I am almost 70lbs overweight and this ish is killing me. I am too young to have my bones, my back, and everything and then some ache. So it has to come off. The cleanse is not only for weight loss but somewhat spirtual. Have you ever felt like you had lost a piece of yourself. Well that is how I feel. I feel like I need to go back to the basics with my life. So doing this cleanse will help me gain some displine, because frankly I have none. I eat everything and then some. So today I have decided to water fast before starting and let me say this is a real challenge. I am so hungry right now, but I am going to keep going.
If you don't know what the Master Cleanse is, well it is a mixture of freshly squeezed lemons, maple syrup, and cayenne pepper. Mixed together and this is all you drink for at least 10 days up to 40 days. I am going to go for 10 and then see what happens. The purpose of this is to cleanse all that stank stuff that our bodies holds on to that it shouldn't; caused by poor eating and not eliminating. I then after the cleanse hope to try a raw food diet for awhile. I don't know if I will be a 100% raw but hopefully 80-90%. Well wish me luck, just writing this has helped me get over my slight hunger pains that I was having.
I have really fallen in love with my hair. I love getting up in the morning and just shaking and going. This was the best decision that I could have ever made. Now if I could just get this weight thing in order. I mean every time I get on the scale I want to just cry. I don't even know where it came from. I haven't changed much in the way that I eat. I actually have been eating less, mainly because of my work schedule and I here comes 15 more pounds added on to my small frame. You can't tell this frame of mine is small because I have 70 extra pounds on it. I truly am uncomfortable. I have decided that it is time for me to make a change so this week I began a workout schedule. I am really trying my best, but every time I go to workout It takes a whole lot of prayer. You see I work nights and when I get off in the morning the only thing I want to come home and do is go to sleep, but nope I am determined to get this extra weight off. I got this wonderful hair but this gigantic body. It just does not mix well for me. Well that is enough of that I am sitting at work now just dwelling on how big I have gotten and I really need to stop. I am going to post pictures soon of my hair. It has been three months now that I have been sisterlocked and it truly has been great. I just wish that I could get my hair retightened when I wanted to. That is another subject that I will have to discuss later.
